Monday, December 31, 2012

The doll

"The doll"

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl.
Jin, do you want to go watch a movie? I asked.
Jin "I can't"
Why? You need to study at home?I felt disappointment grabbing me.
No I am going to meet a friend
He was always like that.

He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word "love" only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say "I love you" before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days,200 days. Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why. Then one day...
Me: Um, Jin, I...
Jin What?don't drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my three words and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many...
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But ...lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me Jin...
Jin Here...take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. when I shouted..."Wait..."
Jin You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...
Jin What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said. Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...How could he!.
I felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for me...
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that... I saw him on a street...with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed he touched the doll... I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell... Why did he gave these to me??
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that it's going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual
Me: I don't need it.
Jin What?.why?
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
"I'm sorry..." He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Honk Honk
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted....
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"
*Boom!* That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.

That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him.
And after spending two months like a crazy person
I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days- when we were in love..
"One...two... three..."
That was how I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you, I love you"
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you I love you"
It can"t be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you"
"I love you"
"I love you"
Those words came out non-stop.
"I love you"
Why didn't I realize that???.
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much....
"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is?
I couldn't say I love you..... Um... since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you.. Everyday...till I die.. Jo... I love you!"
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked
god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute.

For that.. and for that reason... to me..... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...



It all started when I was 16 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together. I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school.

One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a Friend kinda thing that I was feeling. All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him. I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him.

After graduation he got a job in New York; I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart. Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished.

One day I got a letter with an invitation to a wedding. It was from him; I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. It was a big church wedding with the reception at a hotel. I met the bride and of course I talked to him too. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me. I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life.

As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life,

I got a note that said: "Meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore. Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce.

I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together. One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport, and that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place.

Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. I asked questions: "Why did this happen to a kind guy like him?" I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a dairy that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California.

As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written. The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart. So the moral of the story, If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe the next day will never come at all..

"Love at first site"

love at first sight

I have had alot of bad relationships, and my heart was broken a million times, I stopped believing in MR.RIGHT. I figured all men were the same, so I gave up hope, when I went to sleep I would dream about a stranger who was friendly, someone I know, someone I trust and someone I love. but I cant see his face.
  about 4yrs after my last big breakup with my first love at the time, I was over my friends house babysitting, when all of the sudden there was a knock at the door.  I got up to answer it and there was this tall handsome guy with olive skin, big brown eyes, long eyelashes, and jet black hair.  He smiled at me and looked intensely in my eyes and said Hi , I smiled back and said hi.

  we couldnt take our eyes of eachother and the conversation was so nice, we were connected to eachother instantly and I felt like I have known him all my life, he seemed so familiar to me, yet I have never met him before. he said the same about me,
  From that night on we were with eachother day and night. I couldnt believe all the things we had in common, it was nice, he was like a male version of I started falling deeper and deeper in love with him.
  then on christmas eve, he picked me up at my house and we went to his house, thats when he carried me down to his basement, where he put xmas lights and flowers everywhere, he sat me up on the barstool, and he got down on his knees and asked me to marry him.. Of course I said yes, then we ran up stairs and told everyone, I picked up the phone and called my parents,
then after we went to church, we were smiling at eachother thruout the whole mass..  then in march the first day of spring we got married, and  we have had our ups and downs and alot of financial struggles along with 2 kids.
but to this day we still have that deep connection, and  I know now that the stranger I was dreaming about when I was young, My husband was him..

I Love You, Not!

I Love You, Not!

Boy: Baby, we need to talk.
Girl: Ricardo, what do u mean?
Boy: Something has come up...
Girl: What? What's wrong? Is it bad?
Boy: I don't want to hurt you, baby.
Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much.
Boy: Baby, are you there??
Girl: Yeah, I'm here. What is so important??
Boy: I'm not sure if I should say it..
Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.
Boy: I'm leaving...
Girl: Baby, what are u talking about?? I don't want you to leave me, I love you.
Boy: Not like that, I mean I'm moving far away.
Girl: Why? All of your famliy lives over here.
Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.
Girl: I can't believe this.
[FATHER: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously
ERICA!, what did I tell you about talking to boys?!!!... Get off the
damn phone!! (And hangs up).]
Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.
Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I dont want you to go.
Boy: Would you run away with me?
Girl: Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can't... You don't know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!
Boy: *Sad* It's okay.. I understand, I guess..
Girl: *Thinking*I can't believe what's going on.
Boy: I need to give you something tonite, because I am leaving on
flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.
Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.
Boy: Okay, I'll meet you there in 20 minutes.
[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives
her a note.]
Boy: Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.
Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)
Boy: Baby, dont cry, you know I love you... But I have to go.
Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)
[They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her]
It says...
You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my b**** and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, b****. You never did the
right thing, and you were never there. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. B****, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. F***, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.
- Ricardo"
[ Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]
... A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely... Then she gets a phone call....
Friend: How are you feeling?
Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.
Friend: Oh, about that. Ricardo left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something...
Girl: Umm.. okay.
[She finds a piece of paper in the jacket,
It says:
"Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words...
Hate = Love
Never = Always
B**** = Baby
Will not= will
.... I hope you didn't take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me... -Ricardo"]
Girl: Oh my God! It's a letter.. Ricardo does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can't believe how stupid I am!!
Friend: lol Okay but I g2g... Call me later.
Girl: *happy*okay, bye, I'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me!
... Erica turns the T.V. on......
[Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80... it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." the Reporter says.
[ She turns off the t.v. ... 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for... ]
... A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message. "Its Ricardo, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good

The Wedding Vows

The Wedding Vows

When I was six years old I met him in the playground and he came up to me with a daisy, just the one, and knelt on both knees and asked me to marry him. So I pushed him over then ran away. Two days later he came over and asked if he could play cops and robbers with me and from that day on we played everyday.
At 11 on my first day of Secondary school I was so nervous but at lunch time he came to find me, and we sat down and ate lunch together. We did this everyday for an entire year. You were the first person I told about everything, about my crushes, about my lessons and about all the people I hated, and when I was 13 and thought I was the only one who had never been kissed, you offered to show me how, and by the tree in your back garden we shared our first kiss.

At 15 we went to our first proper house party, and I got drunk. Even though I made a fool of myself you were there to help me stand strong. You didnt judge and you didnt make fun.
Over the next year we began to separate  made different friends. I got my first serious boyfriend and you went through quite a few girlfriends. And then it got to May and that meant the prom. Everything had been arranged, I'd been getting my outfit for months and then the day before I found out my boyfriend had cheated on me. The first person I turned to was you. You turned up at my door with a bouquet of roses and a vintage 1950's car.
I laughed that night
I cried that night
We had three glorious years together, when everyday I would smile. Even on the last when your mother stood up, in the church infront of your coffin and began reading from your diary:
"I saw you when I was six stood by the bench in a blue checked dress and daisy shoes and I needed to give an other daisy just because.... Because i loved you from that day on"
His wedding vows written the day after prom, that I will never get to hear."

A bullet for love

"A  bullet for love"

boy- hey, hun
girl- hey
boy- i missed u at school 2day, y weren't u there?
girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.
boy- oh rele? y?
girl- oh nothin, annual shots, thats all.
boy- oh
girl- so wht did we do in math 2day?
boy- u didnt miss ne thing that great.......just lots of notes
girl- ok good
boy- yeah
girl- hey i have a question......
boy- ok, ask away much do u love me?
boy- u kno i love u more than anything
girl- yeah.....
boy- y did u ask?
girl-................>silence <..........
boy- is something wrong?
girl- no nothing at all
boy- good.
girl- much do u care about me?
boy- i would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could.
girl- u would?
boy- yeah.........of course i would >sounding worried < is there something wrong??
girl- no, everythings fine......
boy- are u sure?
girl- yeah.
boy- ok.......i hope so.
girl- ..............would u die for me?
boy- i would take a bullet for u anyday, hun
girl- rele?
boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???
girl- no im fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyones fine.
boy- ............ok
girl-......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school.

boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.
girl- yeah, i love u 2, bye.


boy- hey, have u seen my g/f 2day?
friend- no
boy- oh.
friend- she wasnt here yesterday either.
boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.
friend- well dude u kno how gurls are sumtimes
boy- yeah........but not her.
friend- idk wht else 2 say, man.
boy- k well i gotta get 2 english, ill c ya after school.
friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.


girl- hello?
boy- hey
girl- oh, hi.
boy- y weren't u at school 2day?
girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment.
boy- are u sick?
girl- i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line.
boy- ill wait.
girl- it may take a while, ill call u later.
boy-........alright, i love u hun.
very long pause <

girl- (with tear in her eye) look, i think we should break up.
boy- wht???
girl- its the best thing for us right now.
boy- y????
girl- i love u.
click <


boy- hey dude
friend- hey
boy- whts up
friend- nothin, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately?
boy- no
friend- so u didnt hear?
boy- hear wht?
friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u......
boy- dude, wtf tell me
friend- this number....433-555-3468
boy- ok............


voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.
boy- uh.......i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.
voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info)
voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.
boy- rele? y? wht happened??? how is she???
voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.
boy- WHT HAPPENED??!!!!
voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.
boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*


boy- omg are u ok??
girl- ..................
boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!
girl- i..........
boy- u wht?? U WHT???
girl- i have cancer and im on life support
boy- .....................>breaks into tears <......................
girl- they're taking me off 2night
boy- y??
girl- i wanted 2 tell u but i couldnt
boy- y didnt u tell me????
girl- i didnt want 2 hurt u.
boy- u could never hurt me
girl- i just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u.
boy- ?
girl- i love u more than anything, i would give u the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.
boy- ...........
girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u
boy- then y'd u break up w/me?
nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.


but wht the boy didn't kno is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.


the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other...

i told her i would take a bullet for her....
just like she said she would die for me...

Dear Patrick

"A touching story worth reading."

Dear Patrick,

I was then an only child who had everything I could ever want. But even a pretty, spoiled and rich kid could get lonely once in a while so when Mom told me that she was pregnant, I was ecstatic. I imagined how wonderful you would be and how we'd always be together and how much you would look like me. So, when you were born, I looked at your tiny hands and feet and marveled at how beautiful you were.

We took you home and I showed you proudly to my friends. They would touch you and sometimes pinch you, but you never reacted. When you were five months old, some things began to bother Mom. You seemed so unmoving and numb, and your cry sounded odd --- almost like a kitten's. So we brought you to many doctors.

The thirteenth doctor who looked at you quietly said you have the "cry du chat" (pronounced Kree-do-sha) syndrome, "cry of the cat" in French.

When I asked what that meant, he looked at me with pity and softly said, "Your brother will never walk nor talk." The doctor told us that it is a condition that afflicts one in 50,000 babies, rendering victims severely retarded. Mom was shocked and I was furious. I thought it was unfair.

When we went home, Mom took you in her arms and cried. I looked at you and realized that word will get around that you're not normal. So to hold on to my popularity, I did the unthinkable ... I disowned you. Mom and Dad didn't know but I steeled myself not to love you as you grew. Mom and Dad showered you love and attention and that made me bitter. And as the years passed, that bitterness turned to anger, and then hate.

Mom never gave up on you. She knew she had to do it for your sake.

Everytime she put your toys down, you'd roll instead of crawl. I watched her heart break every time she took away your toys and strapped your tummy with foam so you couldn't roll. You struggle and you're cry in that pitiful way, the cry of the kitten. But she still didn't give up.

And then one day, you defied what all your doctors said -- you crawled.

When mom saw this, she knew you would eventually walk. So when you were still crawling at age four, she'd put you on the grass with only your diapers on knowing that you hate the feel of the grass on your skin.

Then she'd leave you there. I would sometimes watch from the windows and smile at your discomfort. You would crawl to the sidewalk and Mom would put you back. Again and again, Mom repeated this on the lawn. Until one day, Mom saw you pull yourself up and toddle off the grass as fast as your little legs could carry you.

Laughing and crying, she shouted for Dad and I to come. Dad hugged you crying openly.

I watched from my bedroom window this heartbreaking scene.

Over the years, Mom taught you to speak, read and write. From then on, I would sometime see you walk outside, smell the flowers, marvel at the birds, or just smile at no one. I began to see the beauty of the world through your eyes. It was then that I realized that you were my brother and no matter how much I tried to hate you, I couldn't, because I had grown to love you.

During the next few days, we again became acquainted with each other. I would buy you toys and give you all the love that a sister could ever give to her brother. And you would reward me by smiling and hugging me.

But I guess, you were never really meant for us. On your tenth birthday, you felt severe headaches. The doctor's diagnosis --leukemia. Mom gasped and Dad held her, while I fought hard to keep my tears from falling. At that moment, I loved you all the more. I couldn't even bear to leave your side. Then the doctors told us that your only hope is to have a bonemarrow transplant. You became the subject of a nationwide donor search. When at last we found the right match, you were too sick, and the doctor reluctantly ruled out the operations. Since then, you underwent chemotherapy and radiation.

Even at the end, you continued to pursue life. Just a month before you died, you made me draw up a list of things you wanted to do when you got out of the hospital. Two days after the list was completed, you asked the doctors to send you home. There, we ate ice cream and cake, run across the grass, flew kites, went fishing, took pictures of one another and let the balloons fly. I remember the last conversation that we had. You said that if you die, and if I need of help, I could send you a note to heaven by tying it on the string of any balloon and letting it fly. When you said this, I started crying. Then you hugged me. Then again, for the last time, you got sick.

That last night, you asked for water, a back rub, a cuddle. Finally, you went into seizure with tears streaming down your face. Later, at the hospital, you struggled to talk but the words wouldn't come. I know what you wanted to say. "Hear you," I whispered. And for the last time, I said, "I'll always love and I will never forget you. Don't be afraid. You'll soon be with God in heaven." Then, with my tears flowing freely, I watched the bravest boy I had ever known finally stop breathing. Dad, Mom and I cried until I felt as if there were no more tears left. Patrick was finally gone, leaving us behind.

From then on, you were my source of inspiration. You showed me how to love life and live to the fullest. With your simplicity and honesty, you showed me a world full of love and caring. And you made me realize that the most important thing in this life is to continue loving without asking why or how and without setting any limit.

Thank you, my little brother, for all these.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

30 Days Heart Touching Story!

30 Dayz...Heart Touching Story!!!

Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the park
one night....

Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this

Jasmine: I think so...All of my friends have
boyfriends and we are only the 2 persons left
in this world with out any special person in our life

Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do

Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game

Daniel: What game?

Jasmine: i'll be your girl friend for 30 days
and you will be my boy friend

Daniel: That's a great plan in fact i don't have
nothing to do much this following weeks...

DAY 1:

They watch their first movie and they both
touched in a romantic film

DAY 4:

They went to the beach and have a picnic...
Daniel and Jasmine have their quality time together

DAY 12:

Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they
ride on a Horror House....Jasmine was scared
and she touched Daniel's hand but she touched
someone else's hand and they both

DAY 15:

They saw a fortune teller down the road and
they asked for their future advice and the fortune
teller said: "My darling, Please don't waste the
time of your life...SPend the rest of your time together
happily" Then tears flow out from the teller's eyes

DAY 20:

Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and
they saw a meteor...Jasmine mumbled

DAY 28:

They sat on the bus and because of a bumby
road Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by

DAY 29:


Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where
they first decided to play this game...

Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want any
drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the

Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all

Daniel: Wait for me....

20mins later... a stranger approached

Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?

Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?

Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over
daniel and he is critical in the hospital


The doctor went out of the emergency room
and he handed out an apple juice and a letter

Doctor: We found this in daniel's pocket

Jasmine reads the letter and it says:

Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you
are a really cute girl and i am really falling for you..
Your cherish smile your everything when we
played this game..... Before this game would end...I
would like you to be my girl friend for the rest of my

I love you Jasmine....

Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:

"Daniel ! i don't want you to die... I love
you...Remember that night when we saw a
meteor, I mumbled something... I mumbled
that I wish we would be together forever and never
end this game. Please don't leave me Daniel.... I
love you! You cannot do this to me!"

Then the clock strikes 12

Daniel's heart stop pumping


Don't believe the people

"Don't believe the people who say love isn't real. 
They just want to bring you down because they don't
 have what we have."

Some people come into your life

"Some people come into your life to push you forward to
better yourself. And some people come into your life to
bring you down."

I've realize something today

"I've realize something today. No matter how hard you try
to plan your life, life has a plan for you all on its own."

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Halloween contest winners + Hudson Horror Show 666!

Greetings b-movie fans! The holiday season has suddenly arrived and is keeping me extremely busy at work and at home. Because of this, I haven't had much time to do anything with The Vault (or any of my other blogs or sites for that matter), but fear not for I have not abandoned my dark little corner of the web!

The first thing I want to do before I start talking up a certain film festival that's happening NEXT WEEKEND, is give a hearty congrats to the winners of the Vault's two Halloween giveaways. Last month, I asked readers and Facebook fans to send me photos of their jack-o-lanterns and latest Halloween costumes. Several entries were turned in, but two gents won the day, and walked away with some kick ass prizes. (Which included a "Halloween II / Halloween III: Season of the Witch" double feature DVD and a 2-disc "Zombi 2" Shriek Show DVD w/mini poster.) Here are the photos that the winners sent in; great stuff guys! Congrats on winning; I hope you enjoyed your prizes!

James Tompson as Jason Voorhees!

Amazing pumpkin carving awesomeness, courtesy of Brandon Fields!

With that taken care of, it is time to talk about my all-time favorite cult film festival, namely the HUDSON HORROR SHOW! This sixth incarnation of the increasingly popular film fest boasts one of the best lineups I have ever seen! 

Yes, you are reading that correctly folks; there are indeed SIX awesome flicks included in the show! I've seen all but two of them ("Switchblade Sisters," and "Black Christmas"), and as an added bonus, I haven't seen any of them on the big screen before. In an era where all theaters are being forced to go digital, it will be a real treat to catch all six films in glorious 35MM! As the poster above says, the show is located at the Silver Cinemas in Poughkeepsie, NY! The fest begins at 1 PM and seats WILL SELL OUT, so if you plan on going, shoot over to now and pre-order yourself a ticket! Even if you don't, you should get there early to snap up any remaining tickets and two snag one of their limited edition t-shirts!

Also, I have to note that I will not only be attending the event, but I'll also be giving away some cool swag (DVDs, posters, and more!) in between films, so be sure to brush up on your Horror/cult film trivia AND work on delivering your best Ah-nuld Schwarzenegger impression! Also be sure to bring a pillow to sit on (the seats can be unforgivably uncomfortable) and extra cash, because there will be vendors selling books, comics, action figures, posters, artwork, and DVDs at the theater entrance!

Finally..... I want to wish you all a fantastic Thanksgiving Day! Hopefully you have the day off from work so you can chow down and spend some quality time with your families. Remember to chew your food before swallowing, unbutton your pants and/or loosen your belt in order to fit more food into your belly, and if you decide to go out Black Friday shopping be sure to bring protection. I highly suggest riot gear, a tranquilizer gun and/or tazer, and a mug of hot coffee. The latter will give you the extra energy you need to race past other shoppers to discounted items, or it could serve as a weapon too!

(And Radiation-Scarred Reviews, The Casual Gaming Blog,
Bill's Beta Ray Blog, and The Riff Bros.!)

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Halloween Contest at the Vault - ENTER NOW!

Hey all! Bet you thought you'd never see anything new around The Vault eh? Well you're wrong... DEAD WRONG.... err... maybe just plain incorrect. In any case, Halloween is a week away (WOO!) and it is contest time here at the Vault! Two contests are running from RIGHT NOW until midnight on All Hallow's Eve, so you best get your entries in ASAP!

Send me a photo of yourself in your latest Halloween costume. Store bought or homemade, it doesn't matter! Just try and WOW me with your creativity, or the size of your bank account. Send a pic of yourself decked out in your Halloween garb to, or send the photo to me at the Vault's Facebook page (to do so, you have to LIKE the Vault on Facebook, which I totally suggest you do because I'm always posting mini-reviews, movie news, and contest links on a daily basis!). This is a totally open contest for all ages; if enough people get entries in I'll prob create a few categories for costumes (e.g. kids, adults, sexy costumes, etc.) because I have quite a few awesome DVDs and VHS tapes to give away!

The Vault Master as The Angel of Macho Man Randy Savage! OOOOHHH YEEEEAH!

There are a lot of folks out there that have turned pumpkin carving into an art form. Show me what you got this Halloween season and carve yourself an award winning pumpkin. Then take a picture of it and send it to me on Facebook (LIKE THE VAULT to do so) or e-mail it to me at! Please, enter your OWN work, and don't steal photos off the web and sent them in. For this reason, make sure YOU are in the pic with your (possibly) prize-winning jack-o-lantern!

Pumpkin carved by my best friend. Stupid face courtesy of yours truly.

So why should you dress up or carve a pumpkin this year? (Other than because it's friggin' Halloween time!) Because I am giving away some cool DVDs and VHS tapes. I'm still sorting this portion of the contest out (and probably will be up until Halloween night) but I can say without a doubt that two awesome SOMETHING WEIRD VHS COMPILATIONS are up for grabs, as well as SHRIEK SHOW'S TWO-DISC ZOMBI DVD RELEASE (with a cool ZOMBI mini-poster!). I have a few other discs lying around that I will also part with, and will announce them soon as well. 

So get going fellow Halloweeners because the clock... is.... TICKING!

Thursday, September 6, 2012

State of the Vault Address - September 2012

Greetings everyone! It has been quite a while since I've posted any new content at The Vault, or on this here blog, or on any of the other satellite blogs that make up the small, but glorious, B-Movie Film Vault Empire. Well there's a good reason for that: I've been on sabbatical. Recently I've gone through some major trials and tribulations in my life, and decided I needed to step away from my "virtual life" for a bit.

My mother had major back surgery several months ago, and I've been busy helping my dad take care of her, as well as helping to keep the house clean, and splitting enough firewood to keep the old folks warm over the Fall and Winter. On top of that, my fiancee.... or should I say "the woman formerly known as my fiancee," and I hit a major speed bump in our relationship. I'm not going to go into details about this, but I will say that we are back together. We're working through some stuff, and I'm slowly but surely getting her moved in here at Vault HQ. I think things are going to work out just fine, and she will most assuredly regain fiancee status in the near future if all goes well.

Toss in a heaping helping of debt and a side dish of kidney stones, and .... damn it 2012.... you were supposed to be A GOOD YEAR! WHAT HAPPENED?! WHAT AWFUL THINGS HAVE I SAID AND DONE TO GET A ROUNDHOUSE KICK IN THE BALLS FROM KARMA?!!?!?! STEELLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!

:: clears throat, regains composure ::

So obviously I'm pre-occupied with non-site duties, but where does that leave the Vault? At the moment it is sort of in limbo. The domain is going to be re-registered for two more years before this month is through, and I plan on coming back to my longest running hobby soon. However, I'm highly considering (i.e. made up my mind on) giving the Vault a major overhaul to A.) make it easier for me to update it AND post fresh new content, B.) conserve precious bandwidth and webspace, and C.) to make it easier for readers and visitors to interact with myself and each other. I'm leaning towards a blog-style site and will begin construction on the Vault 3.0 very soon. My goal is to have it fully operational around the end of October.

Also, I feel like I must address the ads that have been cropping up all over the site in recent months. I'm hard up for money at the moment and I have pretty much been taking any and all offers to post ads on my site. I hate to do it... absolutely HATE it, but at the moment whoring out my site (which thankfully pays for itself at the moment) is helping me stay afloat financially. The ads are, admittedly, an eyesore, and many of them don't even pertain to film in any way, but dang it, I've got to use every means at my disposal to keep the damned bill collectors at bay.

So there you have it folks: I'm taking a break, but plan on coming back with a vengeance next month. Put away your shovels because The Vault isn't dead yet!

In the meantime, wish me luck, health, and prosperity, and feel free to buy chunks of my long-cherished movie collection to help me out financially. Check out my eBay Auctions, won't you?

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Fright-Rags gives us TWO limited edition shirt designs for this year's final Friday the 13th!

Fright-Rags keeps finding ways to drain my bank account and/or jack up my credit card bills. Though I've skipped out on several of their latest offerings (like their awesome ALIEN and DAWN OF THE DEAD limited editions), I find it impossible to miss out on the two designs that they are putting out this coming Friday. On FRIDAY THE 13TH, Fright-Rags is putting out two limited edition shirt designs based on "Friday the 13th Part IV: The Final Chapter." Check 'em out and start salivating folks!

Design by Justin Osbourn from SLASHER DESIGN.

Design by JEFF ZORNOW!

The artwork is just beautiful, and as soon as I saw these shirts I knew that I must make them MINE! (Same thing happened when Fright-Rags put out their GI JASON and Tommy Jarvis shirts! I'm a sucker for the Voorhees!) Both designs are available on t-shirts and hoodies, and come in all sizes. (S - 5XL for the dudes and S - 2XL for the dudettes.) T-shirts are going for $25.95; hoodies are going for $45.95. This is a pre-order item that is only available from Friday, July 13th @ midnight (EST), until Sunday, July 15th @ 11:59 PM. Once your order is placed, it'll take up to four weeks for your shirt to get to you.

What's that? Yeah these shirts are pricy and yeah FOUR WEEKS is a long time. But you know what? When they arrive on your doorstep, you'll realize that they were well worth it! Plus, once you own either shirt (or both), you can act smug because not everyone will have been lucky enough to grab these shirts before they were gone! (Truth!)

So start rolling change or sell something on eBay (or whip out a credit card and drive yourself further into debt.... LIKE ME!) because you NEED to buy these awesome shirts! And speaking of "Friday the 13th," I'm STILL giving away all twelve films on DVD (plus a Kane Hodder autograph)! Enter before Friday ends! Details HERE!

Saturday, July 7, 2012

New capsule review for KLOWN KAMP MASSACRE!

I just uploaded a new capsule review to the Vault archives, for KLOWN KAMP MASSACRE! Described as "Friday the 13th" meets "Killer Klowns from Outer Space," this low-budget slasher/comedy received high marks from Vault contributor Kenny B. Check out the trailer for it below:

If Troma keeps doing what they are doing, this film could end up for free on Youtube in the near future! If that happens, then I'll definitely check this one out!

Well, that's it for tonight folks, but have no fear, for I have a few more of Kenny's reviews in reserve, plus I'll be taking part in an upcoming roundtable/blog-a-thon called SLATEROCALYPSE later this month. Also, I'll be recording a Youtube video soon, answering the handful of questions posed by some of the Vault's Facebook fans a few weeks back. So stick around, because there's a lot of new content coming your way!


Though I post about movies and such on this here blog about 99% of the time, today I'm doing something a bit different. I'm going to talk about two independently created video games for your PC that are free to play. (Yeah I know, I should be talking about these over at the Casual Gaming Blog, and I will, but these games are totally up your collective alleys! I just had to share!)

First up is TERRORDROME (visit the official site HERE), a supremely bad ass fighting game created with MUGEN. The creators have designed an impressive cast of fighters featuring a few familiar faces such as.... FREDDY KRUEGER, JASON VOORHEES, UNDEAD JASON VOORHEES (complete with broken chain around his neck), CHUCKY, GHOSTFACE, THE CANDYMAN, THE TALLMAN, ASHLEY J. WILLIAMS, LEATHERFACE, MICHAEL MYERS, and MATT CORDELL (aka THE MANIAC COP). Yes, you read that right folks, its a HORROR THEMED FIGHTING GAME and it is very well done! Despite the fact that Terrordrome's creators took the download link down on the site, due to pressure from several companies that didn't want their licensed characters to be included in the roster of a free, fan-made video game, you can still get your paws on this bad boy. ( ----> DOWNLOAD Version 2.7 NOW! ) Along with a lot of fixes, each character has their own "unleashed move" to deal out some real damage to their opponent. Check 'em all out in the following video.

The game still remains unfinished at the moment as its creators plan on adding Dr. Herbert West and Pinhead as playable characters. Plus there's still some music and sound f/x to add, along with a few new stages, and some more tweaks to the fight mechanics. I tried this out when it was in version 2.3, and I have to say that it has come a very long way. Though it can be glitchy at times, this is a really cool game that should have been snapped up for a legit release, not forced to become a "personal" (i.e. covert) fan project that certain studios don't want you to enjoy. (My sincerest "F*CK YOUS" to Warner Bros. and... Orion Entertainment? I thought they went bankrupt?!) Be sure to download and give it a shot, and share it with a friend.

Next up is a somewhat new MORPG that is rendered in awesome 8-bit graphics! Enter the world of... NESTALGIA! (Think of it as "Final Fantasy" meets" Dragon Warrior 3" meets "World of Warcraft.") Create a character, fully customize him/her, team up with others, go on quests, enter PvP matches, and more.... FOR FREE! The best part of this is that you get the entire game for free, not just MOST of it. (I'm looking at you "Age of Empires Online.") You can buy a subscription to get additional add-ons, but it isn't a necessity in the least, and probably goes towards the cost of keeping the game servers going. Check out the trailer for Nestalgia below, then give it a try, so you can have fun and wax ... nestalgic! (Zing!)

If you like what you see, or are just plain curious, visit the official site and download the game and try it out! It is currently a boring and rainy night here in my neck of the woods, so I know what I'm doing for the next few hours....

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Fright-Rags unveils Limited Edition SEND MORE MUPPETS shirt design!

You gotta hand it to the guys and gals over at FRIGHT-RAGS. Just when you think that they couldn't come up with any more awesome ideas... they toss us something super cool that we haven't seen before. Case in point, their new limited edition SEND MORE MUPPETS design, which blends the cuteness of the Muppets with the awesome zombieness of "Return of the Living Dead." It is only available for pre-order until midnight on July 9th and comes in all sizes in both t-shirts (guys and gals) and hoodies. T-shirts are running at $25.95, and hoodies are going for $49.95. Check out this kick ass design below, then CLICK HERE to make sure you get yourself one! And remember, you have just over four day to secure one for yourself.... or a friend.... or your lover.... or your brother.... or a friendly webmaster who has awesome contests on his site on a monthly basis...

Also, FRIGHT-RAGS has recently brought six more designs back from the dead for "An American Werewolf in London," "The Living Dead Strikes Back" (Star Wars/zombie movie mashup), "Dead Alive," "The Raft" (from "Creepshow 2!"), "Nightbreed," and "Ghostbusters" ("There is no Dana. Only Zuul!") These were chosen by fans who cast votes in the t-shirt Graveyard, and will only be available (for pre-order) until July 8th, for $21.95 apiece. But, if you pre-order now, you get 10% off, which knocks 'em down to $19.76! Check out the designs below, then CLICK HERE to get one (or all) of them!

All six designs available for pre-order until July 8th!

Monday, July 2, 2012

And the winner of the JOE ESTEVEZ GIVEAWAY is.....

B.C. Clemmons, come on down! Out of the fourteen folks who entered, your name was drawn, which means you now have some bragging rights AND a copy of "Joe Estevez: Wiping off the Sheen" which was signed by Joe himself! You also get two DVD-Rs of "Soultaker" and "MST3K: Soultaker!" ENJOY!

Don't feel bad if you missed out on all that cool stuff because I still have another big contest going on at the moment! Pitch me your dream "Friday the 13th" movie and really try hard to sell me on it. If I choose your idea, you will win ALL TWELVE "Friday the 13th" movies on DVD PLUS a cool "Friday the 13th Part VIII" mini-poster that is signed by Kane Hodder!

The contest has been going for just over a week now and ends on July 13th at midnight! I will then pick a winner and post a video showcasing the winning movie pitch! So hurry up and get your entries in, because this contest is ending in ten days!

For more details (and ideas) CLICK HERE! Good luck slasher fans!

Casting Call for TALES OF DRACULA!

Hear ye, hear ye! Audition for TALES OF DRACULA on July 21st!
My pal Joe DeMuro (co-producer and creature suit actor from The Demon Messenger) is currently putting together a really cool independent film called TALES OF DRACULA.

Mainly inspired by Universal's cadre of classic monsters, this hour-long homage will will feature Dracula, Frankenstein's Monster, and a cameo appearance by a Wolfman! The script is ready to go, the sets are being built, and makeup f/x guru Ron Chamberlain (who studied under Dick Smith!) is on board to create the monsters.

All that's really left now is to pull together a cast! If you think you've got what it takes, there will be a casting call on Saturday, July 21st at the Comfort Inn, on Front Street in Binghamton, NY. Auditions begin at 8:30 AM and end at 1:00 PM! Along with eight extras, Joe is looking for six actors to make up the main cast of characters. Below is a list of roles that are currently up for grabs in this production:

Click to enlarge.

So be sure to mark July 21st on your calendars, and break a leg! (Not literally.) Once the cast is finalized "Tales of Dracula" will go into production soon after. Shooting is scheduled to begin in late August during weekends.

For more information about the film and/or the casting call, drop me a line at and I'll fill you in. If I am unable to answer your inquiries, I'll pass them on to Joe and he will touch base with you.

Good luck!

UPDATE: The production has added BRUCE GREIG to the team to do some matte paintings and backdrops for "Tales of Dracula." Bruce, a New Zealand native, does a lot of work for Hollywood productions, including: "King Kong," "The Lord of the Rings Trilogy," "10,000 B.C.," and most recently "The Hobbit!" How freakin' cool is that?! 

Monday, June 25, 2012

Ask the Vault Master!

I don't know the answer to
THAT question!

Ever been curious about who I am, what it is that I do when I'm not glued to my computer screen, what my fave movies are, if I'm wearing pants, or how I started up The Vault? Well now is your chance to get an answer to all these questions and more when you ASK THE VAULT MASTER!

For the remainder of this week, send me any and all questions you may have, and I'll answer them via a Youtube video! You may post your inquiries in the comments section below, ask them on Facebook, or Twitter, or even go the really old-fashioned route and drop me a line at! Send in as many questions as you like and I'll answer them all to the best of my ability via video this weekend! I look forward to your queries; this should be fun!

Also, a lot of interest was shown when I mentioned doing an online group chat session while a bunch of us watched a movie. I'm currently trying to make that happen and will be posting more information on that when the details are all hammered out. In the meantime, toss a few questions my way, won't you?

Thursday, June 21, 2012


Before I tell you how you can win all TWELVE "Friday the 13th" movies on DVD (along with a Kane Hodder autograph!), allow me to once again remind all of you that the JOE ESTEVEZ GIVEAWAY is still going on until next Saturday (June 30th)! CLICK HERE for details! The winner gets a copy of the book "Joe Estevez: Wiping off the Sheen" signed by Joe Estevez himself, as well as a copy of SOULTAKER on DVD-R! Enter now because this month is moving by very quickly!

Now, moving on to my next contest (which will be the last big giveaway I have for some time.... you guys and gals are bankrupting me! Haha!), you read that correctly folks! I am indeed giving away ALL TWELVE "Friday the 13th" films on DVD! So how do you win this stack o' movies?! Well, I'm glad you asked! Prepare to do some work over the next three and a half weeks!

To enter, I want you to pretend you are pitching a new "Friday the 13th" movie to me, as if I were a producer at a major film company. It's your dream project and you think you've got a fresh idea to bring the franchise back in a big way, so you are DESPERATE to gain my approval. But I won't be easily swayed. Sure, maybe you've got a cool idea, but it'll take a bit more than a few ideas scribbled on paper to make me cough up the dough for your expensive "fan film."

So develop a really cool pitch about your dream "Friday the 13th" movie. Write up a synopsis or mini-treatment describing the story, characters, and crazy hijinks Mr. Voorhees (if he IS the real killer in your film) will get in to. Also, come up with a fake poster, or a fake trailer, or a storyboard, or concept art, etc. and really try to sell me on your idea. Will you make it a sequel? A remake? A reboot? A crossover? Will Jason battle or team up with other Horror villains? The sky is the limit!

To answer your next barrage of questions: E-mail your "movie pitches" to ON OR BEFORE JULY 13TH! As midnight strikes and we enter SATURDAY THE 14TH, I will be announcing a winner of this contest! Once again, if I choose your film pitch, you will be getting all twelve flicks that make up this crazy slasher franchise! (Plus a miniature Friday the 13th Part VIII poster signed by KANE HODDER!)

So get moving folks because you only have three weeks to pull this off! Good luck, and may the best slasher fan/future movie mogul win!


Saturday, June 9, 2012

Contemplating "Prometheus." WARNING: Major spoilers ahead!

Ok, before I venture forward, let me once again reiterate that there will be heavy spoilers ahead. If you haven't seen "Prometheus" and plan to, stop reading right now. This is sort of a heady sci-fi flick, and you can't get into the meat and potatoes of it without discussing some key plot points or moments from the film. So seriously, if you want to keep in the dark before you see the movie, then GO.... NOW! GET TO THE CHOPPA!

So "Prometheus....."  I have a love/hate relationship with it. I went into this movie expecting an "Alien" film. Well it isn't.... and yet it is. I think for that reason alone, it kind of turned me off. It's not a bad movie but it wasn't what I was expecting and because of that, I think I need to give it another look. So what do I mean by is and isn't? Well it takes place in the "Alien" (and supposedly "Blade Runner") universe, featuring the Weyland Corporation before it merged with Yutani. It also has some strange mutations that will instantly forge a connection between the creatures in this and the Xenomorphs that we are all familiar with.

With that said though, this movie is its own beast entirely. Though the origins of our beloved penile-skullled Xenomorphs are briefly touched upon (more on this in a minute), the film is mainly focused on a group of scientists seeking out the truth behind humanity's origins. After discovering, what basically amounts to a "star map" at various archaeological sites, scientists Charlie Holloway (Logan Marshall-Green) and Elizabeth Shaw (Noomi Rapace) manage to get funding for a two year trip through space to find out the secret behind the ancient "invitation." (Courtesy of a one, Peter Weyland, played by Guy Pearce.)

Things naturally do not go well for the doomed expedition once they discover a chamber within an alien ship, full of jars that contain a black sludge. Said mystery goo turns out to be a powerful and fast-acting mutagen that can corrupt and mutate any lifeform it comes into contact with.

Now rewind to the opening of the film where an alien being, a pale-skinned humanoid (with the body of a Herculean demigod) stands above a raging waterfall on an undisclosed planet. (Most likely Earth.) The being (later referred to as an "Engineer") drinks some of the aforementioned black goo and suffers a cellular breakdown. The creature falls into the water and melts away to a cellular level, and we get a quick glimpse of some DNA strands coming together underwater. Though it has given its life in the pursuit of ... something.... (science?) the being has now created new life! The DNA code was transferred to other living organisms through the water, and theoretically jump-started evolution on Planet Earth, which eventually leads to us becoming the dominant species on the third rock from the sun.

This opening scene, coupled with the theories of the film's main scientific protagonists, suggests that The Engineers created humanity. Naturally, Charlie and Elizabeth want to know why, but as the opening scene dictates, humanity's very existence may have just been a fluke; a side effect of testing a dangerous substance that may or may not be a bio-weapon.

Also, according to various cave drawings across the world, humanity worshiped these advanced beings, who left at some point early in our history and never returned.They left our prehistoric ancestors to their own devices and left behind a map to a far off galaxy.

While the map is guessed to be a sort of invitation, the crew of the Prometheus eventually discover that A.) black goo = horrifying death by transmogrification and B.) that there is still an Engineer alive on LV-233 and it is none too happy when awakened from its cryo-sleep. It is also discovered that the angry being plans on taking a trip to Earth with a stockpile of black "muta-goo." For some reason, the extraterrestrials who made us now want to eradicate us?

After taking all of this in, I came up with a theory. The Engineers did not mean to make us, and perhaps at first, were elated that they had created a life form in their own image (some "God was an ancient astronaut" themes going on here). However, perhaps THEY were the dominant species out in space and worried that one day, humanity, their darling little mistake, would gain the ability to leave Earth and colonize other worlds and become their equal, or at the very least, challenge their power. Therefore, they left coordinates to their stockpile of killer muta-goo behind as a test. If humanity could figure out the map, and travel to LV-233, then that would mean that we as a species have evolved enough to pose a problem. The only thing left to do after that would be to visit Earth and contaminate the water supplies with the mutagen and keep us in check, either by complete extermination, or by turning us back into primordial beasties. This would be the Engineers' final solution in maintaining their power across the galaxies.

 That was the main thing that has been buzzing around my skull since I saw the movie, but I'd be remiss if I didn't discuss the portions of the film that directly figure into the "Alien" mythology. First off, like humanity, the Xenomorphs are definitely a genetic mistake. In the film, some worms get coated in the black goo that causes all the trouble and woes for the film's intrepid scientific team. The mutagen causes the inch-long critters to become two foot terrors. The monster worms latch onto their prey, and constrict their muscles so powerfully that they can break bones. They also like to hop into open orifices (particularly mouths) and have acid for blood.

Later in the film, Charlie Holloway is infected with the muta-goo by David, partially done out of scientific curiosity, and partially done out of spite because Charlie was always being a dick towards the android. Needless to say, things do not go well for Charlie (flamethrowers are involved) but he does manage to make "the sex" with Dr. Shaw before he is incinerated. By doing this, he genetically passed some mutant genes into his lover, causing her to get super-pregnant, super fast, with a four-limbed squid monster! Using a surgical machine, Dr. Shaw removes the fetus from her belly and supposedly destroys it. Later in the film, when she is trapped on a "life boat" with the enraged Engineer (made all the angrier after his ship was knocked out of the sky), she discovers that her dead "baby" is now a very alive and HUGE vagina-faced sex-topus, which she cunningly unleashes on the attacking Engineer.

Dr. Shaw escapes but we get to watch as the mighty "space jockey" grapples with the grotesque mutant until it finally manages to shove a huge ovipositor down his throat. Incapacitated, the Engineer collapses to the floor with the enormous "proto-facehugger" on top of him. Now this is where I think they screwed up with the movie.

At the very end, we get to see the FIRST ever (?) Xenomorph burst out of the Engineer's chest. This is cool and all and firmly ties it into the rest of the "Alien" universe but.... the creature is fully developed?! It doesn't go through the weird snake/tadpole chestburster stage, but comes out whole with all its limbs intact. (And judging by the way it opens its mouth.... it's a queen?)

I know this is the proto-Xenomorph, but it kind of upset me that they skipped one crucial part of its developmental process. Also, its appearance at the very end of the film is sort of pointless. In my opinion, the creature should have come into play earlier, or just been left out altogether. Word on the street says that this will be a trilogy, so they definitely could have left the proto-Xenomorph out of the proceedings altogether. Then again you gotta cater to the fans and get extra butts into those theater seats, right?

Also, the existence of the proto-Xeno opens up new questions and possibilities. Seeing as how Dr. Shaw and David commandeer an Engineer vessel and go to seek out humanity's creators/destroyers (not to wipe THEM out before they can destroy us, but to ask why they are so keen on our destruction), one has to wonder that if there are other ships, (according to David, there are many) then are there any more surviving Engineers on them? If there is, and if the newborn Xenomorph is a queen.... then we may have our setup for "Alien." What if there are more Engineers, and what if they are systematically impregnated by the latest bastard child to be created by their toxic muta-goo? And what if one of them manages to pilot a ship out of the atmosphere and crash land on a godforsaken rock that will eventually be labeled as LV-426?

This is all pure conjecture on my part, but I had to get this out there because I've been thinking (i.e. obsessing) over this movie all day. I didn't care for it, but damn it.... "Prometheus" really got my synapses firing. I'm thinking of giving it a second go in another week or two, mainly because it seems like everyone else loves it. Will my opinion of it change now that I know what to expect? If it does, you can find out for sure by following me on Facebook or Twitter.

If you saw "Prometheus" (which I'm assuming you did if you got this far) feel free to post your thoughts on the film (and on my ramblings) below. Also feel free to share any insights and theories you have about the film, the "Alien" universe, and what FOX's next move with the franchise is! Thanks for reading b-movie fans!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


In my last post I mentioned this here Joe Estevez book that just came out. (Mainly that I got quoted on the back of it. Still can't believe it, though my eyes tell me it's true! Haha.) Not only have I read through it (which I will be doing again because I plan on typing up a review of it) but I've also acquired a second copy that I am ready to hand off to one lucky winner in this month's JOE ESTEVEZ GIVEAWAY!

 If you want to win a copy of this book (which will come with a few other Joe Estevez-related goodies) here's how you can enter for a chance to win it:

Send an e-mail to me at with JOE ESTEVEZ GIVEAWAY (or anything similar) in the subject line. In the body of your e-mail include your name, full mailing address, AND briefly tell me about a sibling of a famous actor/actress that you would like to see get more respect, exposure, and/or roles in major motion pictures. (e.g. FRANK STALLONE!)

The cut-off for entries is June 30th, so send them in ASAP and cross your fingers. A winner will be chosen at random on July 1st; the prize(s) will be shipped the following day! Good luck and may The Estevez be with you!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Joe Estevez news: Bunyan trailer + New Joe Estevez book coming next week!

Joe Estevez, best known by most as the titular villain in SOULTAKER (which is best known for its debut on Mystery Science Theater 3000 - watch the full episode HERE), has had an insanely prolific career in film and TV. And thank the b-movie gods, he is still going strong. In 2012 alone, Joe has over a dozen screen credits in various low-budget features, including... what?! No freakin' way?! Looks like Joe has teamed up with Dan "Grizzly Adams" Haggerty in the direct-to-DVD(?) horror outing, BUNYAN! Troubled teens are taken out on a camping trip, only to run afoul of the axe-wielding giant of American folklore and legend. (No word on whether or not Babe the blue ox will be appearing in this.)

It looks fun (and a bit hokey) and the effects are topnotch, which makes sense because the film is directed by Gary Jones, who has done special effects and makeup in various films including "Mosquito" and "Army of Darkness." Check out the trailer and get excited! "Bunyan" will chop its way into our collective hearts sometime in 2013!

Even cooler than this, is the new book that is coming out on May 31st ($14.95 on if you pre-order it) called JOE ESTEVEZ: WIPING OFF THE "SHEEN." This short read (it is only 146 pages long) contains Joe's thoughts on MST3K, some fun anecdotes, and a glimpse into the world of independent cinema. The book also contains an introduction by Dr. Scott Shaw (aka the Director of "Toad Warrior!"), forewords by the authors (Chris Watson and Brad Paulson), and a short story written by "the man" himself, Joe Estevez. Again the book will be hitting retailers next week on May 31st and... hey... what's this on the back cover?!
Wait a minute..... MY name is Jordan Garren.....

Imagine my surprise when I was chatting it up with author Chris Watson online tonight and he notified me that I was quoted on the back of this book. I didn't believe him at first, so I went to Amazon and zoomed in on the back cover. My mind was blown; I had to share it with the world! And speaking of sharing, I have pre-ordered this book and should have it in my hands next Saturday. Expect a review for it as soon as I finish reading it!

That's all for now folks, but stay tuned for I'm gearing up to get some writing (and recording) done! Expect new content on the Vault this weekend!

Charitable auctions for victims of "Camp Blood" have commenced!

Roughly a year ago, a gent named John Gray told the world that he was having the ultimate Friday the 13th convention with EVERYONE from EVERY MOVIE in attendance. Long story short, Mr. Gray took a lot of money, from a lot of people, and the highly anticipated "Camp Blood" con never happened. Some conventions accepted the "Camp Blood" tickets, but most folks were just plain ripped off and never received a refund. Needless to say... it was a bad situation. Here's a news report about the whole debacle:

Fast forward to today and there's now an attempt to recoup some money to help pay back some of John Gray's victims. Various sources (including yours truly) have chipped in DVDs, collectibles, and a slew of autographed items for bidding. All the money gathered from these charitable auctions will go towards reimbursing the useless tickets that so many people had purchased for the Camp Blood convention that never was. CLICK HERE to see what's up for grabs and be sure to either share the link or start the bidding! Thanks in advance fellow Horror and b-movie fans! Also a huge thank you to Fright-Rags' very own Kristy Jett for pulling these auctions together. I think this very well could put her in the running for sainthood. :-D

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Create a Kaiju contest ends next week! ENTER NOW!

Hey all, the CREATE A KAIJU CONTEST is still going on. Once again, to enter all you need do is create your own giant monster. Design it, name it, come up with its strengths and weaknesses, then send it in to me to win some fabulous GODZILLA PRIZES.... prizes..... prizes..... prizes....

Up for grabs is nearly $100.00 worth of Godzilla goodness including: Classic Media's Godzilla Collection, which includes: Gojira/Godzilla: King of the Monsters, Godzilla Raids Again, Mothra vs. Godzilla, Invasion of the Astro Monsters, Ghidrah: The Three-Headed Monster, Godzilla's Revenge, and Terror of Mechagodzilla. Each disc has two versions of each film and cool extras! Also included in the prize pack are a t-shirt of your choice (send in your shirt size with your entry), a cool Godzilla action figure, and a trade paperback of IDW's amazing mini-series, GODZILLA: GANGSTERS AND GOLIATHS!

As for the creation of you monster, it must be an original concept you came up with and you can bring it to life in any way possible. Draw it, paint it, animate it, use legos, modeling clay, or even design a costume. I've extended the contest until the end of the month, and thus far I only have TWO ENTRIES. So if you like to wait until the last minute, now is the time folks! Don't be shy and certainly don't think you won't have a chance to win! Some folks may be better artists than others, but it will be sheer creativity that wins the day here.

The CREATE A KAIJU CONTEST ends on Wednesday, May 30th at midnight (EST) and the winner(s) will be announced the following day! So get to work fellow monster movie fans; show me what you can come up with and do it fast, because May 30th will be here before you know it! E-mail your entry (or a link to your entry) to and cross your fingers! There's no age limit here, kids and adults are all welcome to enter, and I WILL ship internationally!

Note: I know coming up with an original creature is tough so... here's a bit of help. Supposedly, (this is more urban legend than fact) Gojira (Godzilla's ahm... birth name haha) is not only the result of slapping the Japanese words for Gorilla and Whale together, but was also the nickname for an obese stagehand on the Toho lot. This has been "myth busted" in recent years, but my point is, if you're stuck trying to come up with a creature, slap two different animals together OR use a person (preferably someone you don't like I guess? Hahaha) to serve as the base for your giant monster. Not get going and WOW ME with your awesome creature creations!